Blood

I came to here(America/California) from Prussia by way of Belgium in the 1800's(go west young man). Does anyone know or remember anything about Prussia? I dunno much myself. I once asked a German foreign exchange student, who was visiting my kids, if she knew anything about the land of my ancestors and she said "no" and then asked me if it was over ten years ago. Perhaps that part of the world isn't big on history. I dunno. Junkers. What is it? I've heard that it is a class of people. What class is that? What happened to Prussia? What happened to the Junkers? Were they bad people? Were they good? Were they a critical, ridged and judgmental people? Did they support Hitler? Might make an interesting movie. For now, I'm (happily)semi ignorant.

All I know is that I've had more than a bit of a rough time in America...based upon assumptions regarding my surname. Jungers is the(an) Americanized form of Junkers...it seems that Junkers carried too many unappealing connotations in the 1800's. Junk and all. Oh well. Junkers would sound just fine today.

I never learned anything about Junkers or Prussia or Nazis growing up. My family heritage was never spoken about or emphasized in any way. My parents were apolitical misfits who threw themselves into and at life with the full force that America allowed in the 1950's and '60's and believed that politics and social matters were a complete waste of time; and like so many of their time acted and lived as if they believed themselves to be immortal. While being extraordinarily discipled in our everyday lives during my childhood, we pretty much lived a free wheeling and no holds barred existence seemingly either beyond, outside or before convention.

I never knew anything about my family's bloodline until I was in my late twenties and went to the public(LA County, Palmdale) library and read a bit about the Junkers(the landed aristocracy). When it got to the part preceding WWII and Adolf Hitler...I got nervous and quit reading. I didn't want to know...my part of the family was over here well before that time anyway. I closed the book and put the others back on the shelf.

So I still don't know. But I guess I should be glad that my Prussian ancestors decided to acquiesce to the Roman crusaders in exchange for safe passage to Danzig and access to the Baltic sea via the Rhine. We hate to fight. Fighting makes us crazy. If there were a Prussian Mafia today…you’d know their victims. Their spine just below their skull would be severed via gunshot or blade and their pupils would be removed. We would take insane delight in psyching out our rivals. The prospect of violent rivalry places us below our self concept and we lose all natural constraints of human civility. We know this about ourselves and avoid embarrassing conflict where ever and whenever possible.

Even so, I can't accept the negativity that I've experienced due to my surname. And I’m not the only one. I know a family that is very hard working and honorable and had to put up with harassment from the Police and the City council for over a decade before they were finally permitted to build a store of their own…simply because of their Hispanic surname; which was somehow associated with Colombian drug lords(of all things). How ignorant can people be?

I never even thought to or was taught to connect anyone to anything based upon their surname or ethnicity. I was raised in Victorville CA(far from the who's what of the East Coast)...which had a Hispanic Mayor in the 1960's. Everything seemed to be completely integrated and surnames didn't really mean anything to anyone as far as I knew. It wasn't until I was in my thirties that I began to recognize Jewish surnames. Practically everyone that I had been raised watching on TV had been Jewish. To me they were family. Or at least very familiar. They just seemed like any other Caucasian people to me.

So where does all of the mental horseshit stuff come in? So much trauma. So much conditioning. And so much trying to pass it on and foist it upon others. And now I gather that none the least of it began as far back as 16th century Prussia where Jews were burned by some of my ancestors. Hardly my fucking karma. I would have been one who was molested and cheated by the Jews. Perhaps other family members reacted to what I suffered(given that you believe in such a thing as bloodline reincarnation or blood memory).

The Chinese also killed. They killed Christians....who were merely stepped down subconscious psychically controlled Hebrew agents of death. There can be no spiritual messiah. That concept is an oxymoron. Dummy. We may have messiahs in every other field. But not a spiritual messiah. Dummy. The spiritual contact of truth to find is within each one of us...not some outside persona. Much less a primative sacrificial personality. The concept of a spiritual messiah is an oxymoron. And you guys think that you're so smart. Spiritual molesters and murders is all you will have ever been. You did it to yourselves. Its only ever been about shyster control(since around 500 BC anyway right?). Nice. Hey...you fuck around and fuck around...and you won't be around. It is as simple as that. Or it used to be.

The old days were simpler. Nonviolence requires a lot of us to put up with a lot of shit; and far too often to become permanent irrevocable victims of other people's shit. I bought into nonviolence...much to my physical ruination...just like I bought into treating women as equals...much to the obliteration of my soul. We are evolving. We don't all make it. Its a huge Greek tragedy where everyone is injured…some fatally.

I know nothing. I've been innocent, naive, unaffected and blind sided at every turn in my life by traumatized mutant zombies of one form or another. I even married one. Looks okay on the outside. Looks human enough. But what the heck is going on inside of people? There is a subconscious war of some form going on. Its evolution(baby). Its behavioral evolutionary morphic fields: and the finer things keep shining through. It's also what are we agreeing to play. When we were kids...we used to agree upon what we were going to pretend before we would begin to play. Often play would end when things became disagreeable to one child or another. Why should we agree to play out an adult life where only one percent of the other kids get all of the good toys and Barbie and Ken dolls and the rest of us get the shit toys? Or why should we agree to play that only homosexuals can be known as and considered to be gay?

Once when I was four years old, my mother babysat another little boy that was about my same age. She asked me to play with him. So I sat with him on the sidewalk that went up to the back door of our little brown house in Hesperia Ca. and began to share my toy dump trucks with him. After a few minutes of him just staring at me as I calmly played with my toy dump truck...he went bezerk for no apparent reason and grabbed my toy truck and smashed it onto the sidewalk, screaming in a fit of rage. I picked up my truck and started to go in the house. Just then, my mother asked me why I wasn't playing with him. I answered her that "he doesn't know how to play"... and that I was not going to play with him. And I didn't play with him either. I could have likely gotten a severe beating for such disobedience...but I did not care. Somehow my mother let me slide on this one...this time. And I do not play with dipshit idiot adults who do not seem to understand how to play either. We are all at God's table. But quite a few seem to have exceptionally bad manners. Did we all agree to allow things to be this way?

And what is with the right winged Jews? What is with the Mossad? Is that "MO see swastika and die"? Or "molest oldest son...sad"? Fuck the right winged Jews. I've seen enough of their shit. Just kill me. Fuck the right wing Christian claymation dipshits and the Republican party too. And fuck modern authority in nearly every country on earth. We are being fleeced and had and exploited in ways that are so unsustainable that we are all just about on the verge of losing our very souls.

Where is Mommy and Daddy? The children...naked toddlers...are playing imaginary dress up with only little balls of fecal matter for cuff links. Where are the parents to come home and pick up the needle and arm from the broken record...rinse off the children and set it back down in a coherent groove?

Fuck this PC bullshit generation. Great so you get it...we are all humans. Only you have to be so prejudicial and ugly and immature and lost and Jurassic about it, that you are not even fit to be a generation. You are playing into the hand of distraction and divisiveness. A whole fucking lot of us had this automatically before you yoyos made it your shtick to audablize and narrate every reality distracting geek move. You are just another living example of one step forward two steps back...selfish, trite, two dimensional, shallow, dumbed down modern humanity. Oh...but you've figured that out now. Good for you. Now follow Naomi Klein's example or shut up.

Back when I was a kid....the dumber people were not allowed to speak out and get up in front of other people, where children could witness; and be any sort of influence upon humanity. I hope you are all validated and fulfilled, while the lives of so many more intelligent and qualified human beings are and have been and are still being quietly destroyed. Hey, but the media doesn't seem to care. You've got it made.

Good people do not need a support system or network or a cell phone. Good people are connected. Connected to nature and to higher truth, intelligence and to God. Carry on troubled people carry on.

Personally, I decided years ago that it was actually the blood of all indigenous peoples that I wanted flowing through my veins(with immunity). Modern blood is whacked and out of touch with truth and reality. Modern blood lacks natural skill and natural insight. Natural wisdom. Our heads and souls have been filled with so much unnatural falsehood for so long that we instantly mock and deride truth standing right before us. And we feel completely vindicated in doing so. How did things ever get to this state?

All the worlds different spiritual disciplines, cultures and factors of variation need only to emphasize and concentrate on our similarities as one unified humanity. All differences may be considered to be anthropological and celebrated and studied to further enhance our deeper and actually more integrated comprehension of human life and existence(the bigger picture).

Fighting. Warring. These are evolutionary traits of the distant past. Along with ugliness, mental illness and trauma...these are the things that we can leave behind. Today...right now, our leaders are failing us for not having already had these things done. Things which many of us were born expecting and needing to be able to take for granted. We have been and are being severely betrayed.